They bother me if I don't listen.
I'm only saying this to say, not for their entertainment and pleasure and for them to interpret my anger racistly. but they keep looking for me to think of a bad word to hurt me or try to make me a different person or feel some other sensation or whatnot. I came to the conclusion they are ultimately torturing me, and I haven't gotten to plaster this up but I don't take maybe some things are bad for me while others are good, for others want everything, and I am in danger of being a success.